I’ve never been so scared in my life. Seconds before my cue to walk out on stage and I couldn’t remember what I was supposed to say. I don’t care what Bush says, that was real terror. My cue…I walk out onstage…my mouth opens and words come out…I walk off. That’s pretty much how the rest of the night worked. There was only one real moment when the words absolutely failed me and that black hole of dispair opened it’s gaping maw beckoning me, “…ENTER…”, but my fellow actor stepped in between and closed it for me. I’m eternally grateful to Charlie Robinson. The show ended and I crashed from the adrenaline high I’d been riding on all day long. Regardless of the quality of the performance I consider it a personal triumph but one that I will never duplicate. Ever.
I found out later that things went as well as they did because my brother was acting as an emotional/psychological/spiritual heat sync. As he explains it, a heat sync is a metal piece in a computer that draws heat and energy from the rest of the hardware to keep things from burning up. Thanks Eric.
I don’t know meaning of life I just wrote that to keep you reading on. What a tease!
Sounds like you made it through without any major damage to your psyche or any other part of your anatomy! Sounds also like you held your own — kudos!
Besides that….HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!
Hope you’re enjoying your day and after that harrowing experience on stage…use those acting skills for good things like milking it!
Comment by Annie — April 7, 2007 @ 12:09 pm
Wow…I cannot even imagine how frightening that would be.
Well, I guess I sort of can. I used to play the violin when I was a teenager. I worked for a musician who was hired out for parties and events. The first time I had to do a solo I thought I was going to puke.
That took a lot of guts for you to step into a stage role that you had not rehearsed beforehand.
Comment by Jane — April 9, 2007 @ 1:18 pm
“What a tease!” Always have been!
Comment by Rusty Atencio — April 12, 2007 @ 2:45 pm